Provoking

I'm scared like a rabbit
By a wolf chased
In the dark of the night
Frantically running around in a daze.

I retreat to
A hole under my rock,
Hoping for some respite.
But I can't stay here forever...
And the wolf waits right outside.

I pray, in panic
Someone please come save me.
Someone please come and pick me up.
I don't have the strength any more,
I just want to give up.

And then I hear her voice...
And to me it lends a hand...
Its magical, intriguing
As if from a far away land.

She calls me almost teasingly,
To her I must now go.
Her presence will be my salvation,
Somehow, this I know.

My eyes light up in hope.
My saviour is finally here!
The reward for surviving,
For everything I did endure.

But she refuses to pull me out!
She lovingly taunts my weakness.
She waits for me on the other side.
She's provoking my greatness.

Her voice is honey sweet,
Soothing as a balm.
Once I reach her, I know
I am beyond all harm.

So I start to free myself,
From this prision I call my mind.
Thorns pierce all over
As I crawl to claim what's mine.

Many had called out to me,
Many had lent a hand,
Out of pity, out of sympathy,
They let go, they could never understand.

I crawl on now, just listening
To the sweet voice of her love.

She waits, patiently,
Though she taunts my weakness.
She's drawing my strength out,
Provoking my greatness.

Talent

This is a poem I had written for one of my dearest friends for her birthday :)

Talent

Everyone deserves someone like you

But they aren’t as lucky as me...

Because I have with me...

The world’s biggest NAUTANKI!!!

Your nose is always a lil oily

And it will smell of VICKS

Stupid Vaporub company...

Making Grandmas addicts!! L

All this is part of your TALENT

Which is never-ending for sure...

Ur lucky my phone got lose...

Because in it, I had proof u said,

For sinus, you would learn Pranayam for sure!

Jhoothe tum, mere promises nai rakhte... L

Tenu colg chalu hai tab,

Apna fb account activated nahi rakh sakte? :p

PMT se roj takraate ho tum,

Badi-badi musibatein taalte ho tum

Bhala, bina jyaada nakhre kiye...

Zara ek boiled anda khaate kyun nai tum??? :p

Anyway, a very happy birthday to you...

May you be peaceful, and all your dreams come true.

And yeah... Always remember this.

Keep smiling... I’m always there for you! :p :p :p

x-x

More of You than me!

This is a song that came totally from the heart... Well, its never been sung, but its not a poem either. I strongly believe that courtesy is something that we should all show others as human beings... And the more we do, the happier a society we create! Its all in our hands.

More of You than me

I hope, I can, be bigger than my hurt,

Walk through, look past, all the dark & dirt

Keep my head and heart,

High up in the sky,

Walk hand in hand,

And don’t even have to try...

Stand out, but be a part of the wall...

Keep quiet, but rise up, to the call...!

Be so big, that I can be small...

Be the one, and still be the all...

Cuz we need, more of You than me

Cuz we need, to be Freeeee

So step up,

Tell me what your name is

Step up.

Tell me what our game is....!

Cuz we need, more of You than me

Cuz we need, to be Freeeee

Dancing, in the rain

Rolling in the snow

Watching the su-un-rise

On your face the glow.

But trust me,

As I look deep in your eyes

You burn brighter

Brighter than the sun can try...

Cuz we need... More of You than me

Cuz we need... to be freeeee

So we’ll try

To sing along to the song

Show the sad faces

We all just belong...

Cuz we need...More of You than me

Cuz we need...tooo be free!

x-x

Love

This poem is about my first experiences in falling in love... What I learned from it, what I believe! Although I wrote it three years ago, I agree with a lot of the stuff in it still.

Love

She was the first one I loved

It’s that simple for me...

That I would fight for her love

Was not something I could foresee

Was not love that magic word

That opened the gate to kingdoms afar...

Was it not that elixir of bliss

That made sweetest the porridge sour?

The very wind,

That blew all troubles away

That deep longing

To be with you all day

The magical music in the air

The scent of her waving hair

The songs the birds sing from the trees

The whispering of her voice in the breeze...

The thundering sound of the crashing seas

The faint rustle of the nimble leaves

It was thus, and much more

Abundant, the surprises, love had in store...

Some were happy, and some were nice

And some that attacked at my every vice...

It laid bare my soul so true...

It painted me red, it painted me blue

It questioned all my beliefs so sure

And tested me beyond endure.

It asked me if I had the courage,

To stand by “I Love You”,

It asked me if I could feel it in my veins

Did it flow through and through?

It led me to a cliff,

And told me to jump;

I said, I dare not try...

What fear are the valleys,

The seas, it said...

To those with wings who can fly?

The flight is one

Its wings, two

Supported by you and me...

Holding hands, side by side

Learning what it means to be FREE...

Learning from each other,

How we actually are to be

Gazing, at the universe

Our eyes filled with glee...

Love is the safety anchor

Love is the clouds in the sky...

Love is the shooter’s mark

Love is a mirror, in front of thee eye...

Love is the unforgettable journey,

That changes all parts of thee...

Love is the impeccable tour guide

Through an otherwise rueful destiny

Love isn’t you,

Love isn’t me,

It’s what we have together

More special than special can be...

x-x

Le Fight

A short poem...

Le Fight

Looking back down memory lane...

To myself I had made it very plain;

If something similar shall arise again,

This time I will fight to the end...

The previous fight I gave up

I couldn’t find my strength

From its effects I’m still tottering

I mustn’t fall again...

This fight is for what I believe...

And I believe I’m here forever

There’s no backing down from this

It’s now or never...

x-x

A Question

So this was something I was going through maybe three years back... A dilemma of sorts! It's pretty self-explanatory.

A Question

The heart loves without a name

To it, it’s all just a game

Regardless of the name our bond is given

Only through our hearts is it driven...

So what has my heart named you?

If you even turn away,

I feel a cold hue...

I need you so much,

You’re almost like the air I breathe...

I need you so much,

Sometimes it almost feels like pure greed...

I can’t see why not...

That’s why here I stand...

There’s nobody who understands me better...

Nobody gets me the way you can.

You helped build me up so much

We believe in much of the same...

Now, I must find myself outside us...

Because two have to play this game.

Only time will tell me

The name my heart has given you...

Only time will tell...

Will I call you best friend or the true...

x-x

Reality is, my heart calls it neither! That person is not even in my life any more :P

Untitled...2012

An old poem :)

Untitled

I cant even tell you what I feel
Every time you look away
Its just a mild shock
I forget what I want to say..

I just walk away
And leave you and everyone behind
Sadness and loneliness
Is all on my path I find

The funny thing is i never want to show
That sad look in my eyes
Seeing a look of pity for me
Is just something I despise...

Those times though I really long for that hopeful gaze
That tells me that I'm not too bad...
That I'm not too far gone..
That there's fun left to be had! ;)

Its even more painful to look back
I just fade into the dark
I don't know what I did that time
But it was you who gave me a fresh start..

Just a few words, I don't even know If you remember...
And again in my life there was a flow
Something to look forward to
Someone who thought I was worth a show

I don't know why I'm this way
Guess that's just the way I was built..
I know, I know what you're thinking..
That I'm just silly to the hilt...

I try not to be this way
But that's a different story all along
Its just a matter now of being strong...

Your absence is bad enough
To just drive me mildly insane
A word from your lips
And commence the pouring rain..

Oh rains...
Wash away the past
Take away all the fear
Bring us back..
To the world near...

I'm sorry I couldn't change things
Fate sometimes has her way..
Ill just try to be your guest
As long as I can stay..

If it was up to me, I'd just stay forever
But then again, more than us, life is clever

Quit cribbing, life's more about the fun and play..
You're a bubbly little baby, that's how it should stay
Take yourself and mould yourself up, as u do with clay..
Pass the test in the flame, when you feel its your day!

You'll come out stronger, that much I promise you
Then you'll laugh at the past,
Saying its so stupid you
Ever acted that way, can't believe how you were

Let the power in you stir...
Let the power in you stir..

X-x

Upside Down

Upside down

Why do pets die?
How come the ones
Making you cry
Will never ever..
Be the ones finding out why!
Why does every relationship
End with a sigh..
We shud b happy to have given it a try! :)

Theres a reason that
Monsoons are wet
And winters dry..

What goes up must come down..
A smile :) is nothing
But an upside down frown! :( :P
But all this means little
If you're not around
But if that's the way its gotta be..
I'll just wait till this too turns around... :)

x-x

My bunny Cera..passed away 2013

A bridge

Ever feel like some people enter your life just to teach you one lesson, or help you get through one particular experience, one rough patch? And they go out of your life just as suddenly as they come in. However it is, you aren't stuck anymore, you've reached a new place...

A bridge

We don't know why some things happen..
We don't know why some things end..
We don't know why some people,
Are not with us till the end..
They're just with us,
As we cross a certain bend..

Sometimes the broken pieces
Just don't fit back together
Sometimes hope is not enough
Against all the stormy weather
You're cold, stuck, afraid..
Just to your defences tethered.

And that's when someone enters your life
Just for a little while..
To help you up, pick up the pieces
Give you back your smile..

Soon enough, they've gone ahead
And you're left looking back..
They're not in your life anymore
After showing you the right track.

And these are all the puzzles which
Aren't initially solved,
Until many days fly by
And gone is everyone involved.

But no matter how
Things did end
They remain of us a part..

The time we slowed,
The time we stopped
They gave us a new start.
x-x

Untitled...2008

I know you wont be there
I just wish you would care
Because theres someone here waiting for you

The rush of air
I feel when u stare
Right into my eyes...

Look up at the sky
Feel the Breeze (on your face)
I'll always be there for you

Maybe i'm different
maybe you too
whenever i see ya
my heart turns blue...

Cuz i know it cant be true
I know it will be wrong
THE GATES JUST WONT LET ME THROUGH!

Cuz i just want you to care
To know i'll be there
Still waiting, just for you...

I wish you would know
I'd walk a million miles barefoot through snow
Just to stare at you...

All i want to show
I dont know where to go
I wanna see u celebrate
Hope ur heart would never break
That you can walk without a fear
With ur best friends very near...

Walk on, without a fear..
Dont worry, i'll be there!
Even if you wont care...
Life may not be fair...
I'll still be there...
x-x

Your Heart

Your Heart

Somebody disappeared from your life for a time,

When they had to chase dreams of their own;

Even though they knew you couldn’t feel as happy without them,

Even though they knew you’d miss them intensely.

And you welcomed them back with your arms open wide,

And there was a pain in your heart;

Asking why they had stayed away, for so long,

Even though you had heard their answer a million times.

You could understand their feelings,

You always supported them in their fight;

How then, after being so loving,

Could your state be, of such a plight?

You still felt a little wronged,

Although you had all the reasons that you did need;

You still felt a little sad,

As though from the loneliness of those days, you were still not freed.

How is the reasoning, of your beating heart?

That it never beats with your mind,

That it yearns, purely for which the mind calls irrational

Making you to logic, stunningly blind…

Their honest mistake was an act, that cut deep,

Bonds that were earlier so strong,

As a result, of which,

The look on your face is so forlorn…

There is nothing much to be learned from this;

For the heart will always have its ways.

However, the wrongs, in its book,

Are not those than cannot be erased.

They say that everything, takes time,

That is true even for thee.

Let your heart open, let it feel the love again;

You will be smiling again… Even before you can count until three!

Pieces

Pieces

A drop trickles down the leaf
A drop falls on the ground
A drop falls from the sky
Forever earthbound…

No matter where it halts,
No matter where it stops,
There’s only one earth
Where it can drop.

All of your life you spent looking
All that time you waste
When you know that gravity pulls you both together,
Why the sad face?

Like the raindrop is earthbound,
By gravity’s grace,
You’re being pulled towards her;
Because your fates are interlaced…

You’re meant to be,
Always will be, but only if you

Take your chance and,
Play your cards right-
If you take too much time,
She’ll be out of sight!

Don’t be scared, don’t dare to halt;
As you speed toward her, you’ll be in shock.
All except her will be a blur,
She’ll be all you dream about!

When you will reach her,
The moment, at last,
As two finally become one…
The pieces always fit perfectly together
Forever, to last.

x-x

Just Not The Same

Just Not The Same

Sometimes people put you down,
Sometimes people let you down,
Sometimes they just walk into your life,
And leave you with a frown...

Sometimes they just walk away,
When you would just wish them to stay..
How would a broken heart mend this way?

Maybe it was your mistake then,
When you let them through your gate..
Maybe, you shouldn't allow them,
To touch your heart again,
Unless they prove themself a friend...

Maybe you put too much faith
Too many expectations, all in vain;
But dont hesitate to do that again,
Its the way of life to forgive and befriend...

Or perhaps you did something wrong and didnt realize,
That upset the balance of things..
Maybe they didnt show it,
Seeing if you would notice, but because you didnt,
Deciding that you weren't true...

Either way it happens, you've lost your way,
Because your road had belonged where you and the others had played,
And now, without them, it just doesn't look the same...

x-x

The ship

The Ship

Has the ship finally set sail?
For all those who are dull and pale,
The couples facing a rainy day,
My ship has set sail I say...

This ship will take you far and wide,
Far beyond any ordinary divide;
If you trust in your love you'll certainly find,
Your love is with you heart and mind...

This ship, you must get on-
Its dock is where your love was born,
And it must grow, and it must breathe;
Or it will strangle you like a  weed.

Love is patient, love is kind;
But love is also a mastermind-
You'll never know where your ship will go
Not a day forward, love will show.

This journey will take you all your life
It will certainly cause you a lot of strife...
No matter whether you're the husband or wife;
Hold on to the ship for your good ol' life...

This ship, you will find, will stop at many ports;
And, along the coast, you will find many boats...

In these boats you may leave
Your wonderful ship behind;
But then, sweet love again,
You may not find...

But Love... knows all the ways,
So, always it stays,
Even though you may have sailed away;
You may again find your ship in the dock someday...

So all you've heard till now;
Is of the journey dary...
Haven't you been thinking
Of your all-mighty spark?

The same spark, from which your love to you was known,
When your ship to you was shown;
It keeps on gowing through the dark,
After all... it was the spark.

Of a mighty fire, that was to begin,
And give you warmth,
And save your skin...

And through the dark,
All that you may see,
Is the blinding light,
For nothing else can be!

Because when our world goes dark;
Yours is lit by the spark...
And for all I can see,
That's how all our worlds should be...

So go through all the troubles;
They make you wise...
You won't feel any pain, or any lies;
As long as the love, never dies...
Just stay on the ship,
And stay hand in hand;
As you look out together,
Unto distant lands...

x-x

Everything thats not near

Jus cuz u dnt talk doesnt mean its not der..
Jus cuz it aint dark doesnt mean ur not scared..
Just cuz it dint leave a mark doesnt mean it dint leave u bare..
Just kept running, like a scared hare...

The day was dark,
The nights were long
The birds would fly,
Without any song..
And i would lie
All day long..
Fast asleep.. cuz i was so wrong..

Walking like the undead..
Cheating my deathbed
Always crying instead
Happiness just a thought..
All alone in my head..
As i lie down ,
All alone in this bed..

Just live for yourself..
I have always been told
Its a dark world out there..
You will be cold..
But i wont do that..
I wont die alone old..

I walk to the light
I yearn to be free..
Walk out from the dark side..
Show the bloomed tree..

So i can walk without a fear..
With everyone so close and so near..
With a smile and a tear..
EVERYONE OUT THERE DO YOU HEAR??..
I live with no fear..
I know my time has come near..
This rhyme is but a souvenir..
For now the hare will hunt the deer...

Nature/Ma..

Im jus waitin here for the sun to shine..
Warm up my heart with its rays so fine
The Lord's divine, I will fly so high
Not even a limit will remain the sky...

Or let the first drops of rain fall down..
Cleanse my heart, wipe off my frown..
My body will be ablaze again..
The stars fall in place again..

I leave myself to Nature's call-
Heal me mother once and for all..
Teach me to run, teach me to crawl
Never to stop, in the long haul...

Ill keep dribbling the ball, even if i fall...
Take care of me like Im your doll..
Let me out, give me wings...
Help me figure out these things...

You're my mother
Im your son
Show me how I've always won...

Nurture me in your bosom,
Set me free..
Make me work
Like a busy bee...

Im tired Ma,
Of not listening to you..
You're the key
To making my dreams come true...

You've been for me all through and through..
Just do your magic...like only you do...

Dreams

Dreams

I believe not following your dream
Is nothing short of the biggest crime...
That’s the first thing in my head
Whenever I sit down and rhyme…

I believe there's a solution to every problem,
Something to lift you up when you’re hit
Something you’re strong enough to follow
When it comes to your life’s dream it’ll always fit

And I see what really happens and it really gets me in a split
I guess that’s what happens when you get by reality hit.

I never thought anyone could stop you
From doing what you want to do
Thought there would be no resource
That wouldn’t come to you to help you make it through!

Sometimes I wonder, what is a dream…?
Is it something that makes you rude, something that makes you mean?
Is it the only thing you can see…?
Does it make the rest of the world look make-believe…

Is it something that shows you what the reality is out there?
Is it something that calms you down, when the world’s given you a scare?
Is it the only thing that by which the rest you can see…?
Does it give you the strength to be the best you can be…?

So I feel your dreams are the freedom you wish to see…
A measure of what you want your life to be!

Like for the deer, the boundless open grass…
A safe haven, where nobody would tresspass;
For the monkey, the great old banyan tree…
Where they have food in abundance and safety to be!

Its the soothing lullaby for when you can’t sleep at night,
Its that flow of energy that gives you respite…
Its that comforting embrace holding you tight;
That tells you everything will be alright…

Or it may be a rousing call to stand up and fight!
The courage that keeps you burning from inside,
The knowledge that what you are doing is right…
To keep moving forward, and climb every height…

When everything else is rusted and old…
When all of the world seems so dark and so cold…
When we look for the spark, the strength in our bone,
Our dreams are all we have; they are all we can hold…

Ebb and Flow

3/4/12

Everything you cant imagine your life without,
Will be taken away
Everything you never had a doubt about, gone
And there's nothing you can say..

One moment surfing the top of the waves
The next, crashing into the hard bed down

What is with these ebbs and flows..
They only end with a frown..

Some things feel like they'll run forever
Even when they feel like they're slowing down
The silent fears, thoughts in my head,
Hastily I push aground..

This feeling of sinking is oh so similar
And, its yet so vague
One I cant get a grasp of
Of the mind it is a plague...

The thing with this ebb and flow
That's the only way it does go..
If there's anything it can show,
It goes fast after it goes slow

The dark

18/4/12

Why do I feel hurt?
Like all that's inside me
Is filth and dirt...

Why do I go and lie?
And say Im full on the inside
When all I want to do is cry...

Why do I feel so wrong?
How is it I'm growing weak,
Instead of growing strong...?

This path is in the wilderness
But I feel I'm near a stream...
As I draw nearer and nearer,
Its all just a dream...

When does the night end?
When will the day dawn?
When will the trees smile again?
Instead of looking so forlorn...

But I need to walk through it
For on the other side do lie
Waiting, just for me
Meadows full of joy...

Where the trees do not protect the darkness...
And he sun sets me free...
Ahh... Those lush green meadows...
That's where I want to be...

Lack of emotions?

These days i've just been feeling like I've got a lack of emotions.. Just like I've got some problem breathing in the air from my lungs, and some pain in my chest.. Ive been feeling like this for ages but this pain began around 5 months ago! Ive got no idea about it.. Just guessing its the after effects of depression!
Someone just told me yesterday that my lack of emotions isn't a bad thing- that its great! that its what everyone wants.. Well i just replied that people in general want something, which they simply regret after receiving...
But it got me thinking. What if, I am just not receptive to some emotions now..? Some things that I went through, made me understand that pain is necessary for our growth as humans, as individuals... To improve! So maybe thats why I don't feel sad or happy or angry anymore?

I don't know about you, but just doesn't seem that way to me... Seems plain wrong!